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antipallidan[translated from tauhe]
The voice in my head, urging me, goading me, and when I tried to resist, it was like my very soul being crushed in dispair if I did not obey. We attacked and leveled New Avalon- The horrors I was forced to commit.. I will not write of them here. And then, when the opportunity to show mercy came... I will never be certain if I showed mercy in killing my once friend and brother in arms. But something within me broke. I... went mad with a crazed lust for death and killing. It was only when I was ordered to attack Light's Hope Chapel that something happened. The voice, ever present since my awakening, was made silent. Whatever the Ashbringer did, it broke the King's hold on me, and I felt the dispair and crushing feeling leave me.
I gladly channeled my anger and rage once again as I helped take back Ebon Hold and Acherus with the other Knights of the Ebon Blade.
The voice in my head, urging me, goading me, and when I tried to resist, it was like my very soul being crushed in dispair if I did not obey. We attacked and leveled New Avalon- The horrors I was forced to commit.. I will not write of them here. And then, when the opportunity to show mercy came... I will never be certain if I showed mercy in killing my once friend and brother in arms. But something within me broke. I... went mad with a crazed lust for death and killing. It was only when I was ordered to attack Light's Hope Chapel that something happened. The voice, ever present since my awakening, was made silent. Whatever the Ashbringer did, it broke the King's hold on me, and I felt the dispair and crushing feeling leave me.
I gladly channeled my anger and rage once again as I helped take back Ebon Hold and Acherus with the other Knights of the Ebon Blade.
